Thursday, August 31, 2006
happy birthday.

it was raining since ydae. it felt as thou God was crying for some reasons. i cant deny i still feel for it. don think anione will understand how it feels except for those who had really gone thru wad it was. it wasnt easy at all to cope with the grieve and all.
somehow, i wish u were still here with us. i know its silly to even think this way. naive many would say. but i reasoned it myself that the v35 door is spoilt for a reason. it couldnt be closed properly no matter how hard we try. well, i wonder if the door creaks open whenever 05S61 is not using.
looking on the brighter side, maybe it all happened for a reason. if it werent for u, i think the class wouldnt have a common identity. in a way. i duno, seems like the high attendance today explains it all. never had i felt that the class was close until todae. it started off quite well, i was laughing at the bus stop. but solemn when the time has come. i couldnt even bring myself to take the first step in. i was afraid to face it all again. i couldnt bring myself to have a closer look. i regretted not being able to pray for u bcos of the overwhelming emotions that had overcame me. i was angry with myself for being weak. i wonder why others could do it, but i couldnt. but after the long walk, i guess u shared a bigger part of ur life with me. and im glad that u did. still can rmb the many moments we shared. as if they just happened not long ago. but all of that had came to a fullstop.

and i missed the shoulders that i was crying on, on that very day.

heard of the seven greatest sin? i think my greatest sin is pride.


shedded at 11:16 AM

MYSELF!
Felicia
Victoria-JC
Seventeen-Plus
Eighteen-October
Feli_cia36@hotmail.com
LOVES!
Volleyball
Fei Fei
Family
Xiao Ming
Years in Cedar
Mahjong Gang
Being Loved
WINNING(money and competitions)
EAT!

HATES!
Liars
Being Unwanted
To Lose
Having Regrets
Nightmares
all the IF ONLYs